Give me a blank canvas and I will raise you a middle finger.
There is nothing more scary to me than the idea of starting “new.”
This whole new year new me thing? I’m not doing it. Never have, never will.
Coming from a girl that litterally crossed an ocean on a whim to live in NYC.
I just don’t believe you ever actually start fresh. That’s not how it works.
Everything that’s happened to you, the lessons, the choices, the weird turns, it’s all layered in. You don’t get to throw it away. And honestly, why would you want to?
Even when it’s something I love like pregnancy. If you're new here: birth is my thing. Teaching people about it is one of my greatest joys. But with my third daughter, I had this moment where I was like: do I really need to do the full 40+ weeks again? Can we just skip to the good and gooder parts? The actual birth? The newborn smell and the long snuggly nights? But no such luck. You don’t get to jump ahead. You don’t even get to jump just because you know how it ends.
Not like rewatching Sex and the City, where I just skipped the Big affair episodes entirely. Poor Aidan. We didn’t need to live through that again.
Life doesn’t let you skip. Yoga doesn’t either.
This week I led my classes with a question: where is Tadasana in this pose? We looked for it in Eka Pada Sirsasana in my Level 2 and in Warrior 3 in my foundation classes.That sense of stacking and remembering, even in the weirdest or most challenging shape, it’s still in there. You just have to look, because when you can rely on the known, the unknown gets less scary.
My friend Lindsay Monal moves through life like that. She started out as a student in Bowl Club, this virtual sound healing group. Then she became a guest speaker. Now she runs the thing. Not because she reinvented herself but because she followed what was already true and just kept going.
There’s a quote I’ve been thinking about a lot:
“One is never afraid of the unknown; one is afraid of the known coming to an end.”
Yes! We don’t want to lose the pieces we already earned.
And the good thing Is that unlike a trifle or the panna cotta at Razza, where hélàs, your spoon eventually hits the bottom, your layers don’t run out. Every part of your experience adds to the next one.
So don’t start over. Start from. Bring it all with you in 2026 and beyond
Ps: Can you image the layer of being you'd bring back from France? The experience of true rest in a magical place ?
Pps: or the layer of deepening your teachings ? is teaching prenatal yoga on your 2026 moodboard ?
